新勢力

老爸前幾天帶了大家去玩具槍的專門店﹐
想要更更更更更厲害的玩具槍。
不用說了﹐就是要"嚇走"鴿子。
老闆示範了好多玩具槍﹐
然後老爸和弟一直要求更強的。
就這樣﹐在店裡待了一個多小時﹐
終於很滿意的花了$1500買了一個威力很好的。
不知道要叫那個什麼了﹐應該不算是玩具槍了吧。

現在已經3天沒看到鴿子了。

我開始畫畫了

痛了5個月﹐
從還可以咬冰塊到什麼都不能咬﹐
終於那個蛀牙在星期三的時候﹐
斷掉一半了。
好痛哦..................................
現在要抽牙根做燈管(?)治療。

時間真的過得好快﹐今天已經13號了﹐
然後明天妹就要到高雄了﹐很開心。
老媽覺得我在客廳擺放的盆栽和可愛的仙人掌﹐
還有養著海藻的鞦韆玻璃球球 (哈哈不知道要怎麼形容)﹐
跟一些顏色鮮艷的相框﹐
把客廳佈置起來的感覺還不錯。
然後昨天跟老媽又買了一個黃金葛放在妹的房間裡﹐
現在還在想辦法拍些有意義的照片放進相框。

嗯! 是的! 我開始畫畫了哦!
應該說開始認真的畫了。
這一年以來都是隨便下筆﹐毫無頭緒的亂畫﹐
然後花個半小時﹐畫完後也不存檔。
現在有計劃性的想了一些東西和奇怪的ideas﹐
雖然還不太確定是要拿來干嘛的﹐
但就先當作是練習好了。

我發現高雄的節運站很可愛﹐
就是當節運要進站的時候﹐
就會開始播一個很奇怪的音樂。
我叫那個音樂為"快樂小精靈到來之歌"。
但是聽久了會很想吐...

我的命很值錢的!

這是駕訓班的教練跟我說的。

昨天第一次上路試開﹐
好棒哦!!
雖然很緊張但是感覺真的很不錯。
但是一個逆向行駛害教練一整天的口頭禪是
"厚嚇死我了嚇死我了!!!!!"
然後就一直念說 他的命很值錢什麼什麼的...

最近跟爸媽談了很多很多﹐
應該是說浪費了很多的口水吧。
對於我的未來﹐
我們沒有結論﹐也沒有達成共識。
現在老爸給我的選擇是以下:
選擇第一名: 新加坡﹐讀書﹐或是工作。
選擇第二名: 台北﹐ 找工作﹐然後也可以半工半讀。
選擇第三名: 高雄﹐找工作﹐也可以半工半讀。
選擇第四名: 美國﹐讀書兼職。
選擇第五名: 南非 (不想讓我去)
選擇第六名: 新巴克 (老媽亂加的!!)
選擇第七名: (老弟還在想﹐說不管怎麼樣他說也要想一個)

老爸想要我去新加坡(陪我媽/讀書)﹐老媽想要我待在台北找工作。
然後我的想法完全不重要....................
怎麼這樣﹐好獨裁。
我不想再回去新加坡的大學了﹐
既然已經離開那裡﹐
我不要再回頭了。

可是回顧過去﹐還是會有很多的抱怨和不平。




好希望現在的自己還在大學裡。

得意忘形

我是個會得意忘形的人。

嗯這是我兩秒前的感想。

愚人碼頭

好啦是 "漁人碼頭"。

前天大概在奶奶家待到晚上9點多﹐
然後老爸就開車載我們到高雄的漁人碼頭。
心裡一直想說那裡一定是個廢墟﹐
一定很髒亂﹐
一定有很重的魚腥味。
結果﹐原來是個相當棒的地方哦~
一長排的餐廳靠著海﹐
可以看到好多大型的船只﹐
有好多的情侶和腳踏車隊﹐
感覺真的不錯。

老爸前幾天買了一個彈弓﹐
和一大桶的bi-bi子彈。
為的就是要射陽臺上和對面的 --------- 鴿子。
鴿子都很喜歡停在陽臺上﹐
然後把陽臺變成了一個超級大的糞便池。
為了健康﹐為了不要得腦膜炎﹐
老爸和弟想到說用彈弓趕走它們。
當然不是射死﹐只是嚇嚇它們讓它們飛走就好了。
可是﹐居然都嚇不走。
老爸氣瘋了﹐
然後就很準的直接射到了鴿子的胸。
天啊﹐結果鴿子只是左右的走了一下左右的看一下﹐
繼續停在原位。
我們都看呆了.............................
我發現高雄的鴿子不是鴿子﹐
應該是母雞突變的。
肥到一個被射到了都沒有感覺的狀況。

目前大家還在想辦法怎麼趕那些鴿子。

LOVE不見 了

昨天正式宣佈﹐
我在新堀江買的戒指上的Love...
不見了。
好難過哦﹐
大概是我在整理外套的時候斷掉的。

昨天從台北一回到高雄就直接去駕訓班了。
昨天練的很勤奮﹐
從頭到尾都沒有壓到線也沒有熄火。
但是﹐
碰到了很討厭的事。
在考試區的時候﹐
居然有人半路攔我的車!
他說: 小姐﹐可以載我一程嗎。
我說: 對不起不行耶。
他說: 拜託啦﹐我心情很糟糕﹐因為我撞車了。
我: 啊什麼?!!
他: 對啊﹐我一直在注意妳所以就不小心撞上安全島了。我好沮喪哦。
我: 不好意思我沒辦法幫你。下次小心一點。

然後我就開走了。
我有小小的的反省了一下自己是否會太冷淡了呢﹐
經過了6秒長時間的深思後﹐答案是 "不會。"

我還發現了一件事﹐
我好愛開車啊~~
雖然一直在重複繞著考區﹐
重複一樣的動作﹐
可是就是超愛的!!!!
每次開車都會超過時間﹐
但我就是停不下來。
我好喜歡開車我好喜歡開車我好喜歡開車!

這幾天變天的很厲害﹐
有時候超冷﹐有時候超熱﹐
身邊的小朋友們都感冒了。

有種預感下一個會是我。


這幾天的胡亂吃和喜酒大吃﹐
好像又害我多增了兩公斤。
天啊....恐怖的輪胎從大貨車好不容易換成小客車現在又回到大貨車了。

前天的一趟上台北﹐
讓我對未來的"不知道"少了一點點。
我發現我是個懶人﹐
我懶得去想 去做 去實現。

人如果沒有夢想﹐
那人生就沒有意義。
但如果人有夢想可是不去實現﹐
那就是個沒意義而且很失敗的 人生。

而我現在是後者。

高鐵上台北!

我要提醒自己,
以後逛街還是自己一個人去。
剛剛跟老媽去逛百貨公司﹐
感覺好像在趕羊群哦。
好像從12樓到1樓只花了10分鐘﹐
什麼都看了也什麼都沒看到。
天啊...

明天中午要去台北喝喜酒。
想要搭看看高鐵的老媽﹐
故意跟老爸說我們因為太忙了所以明天才去。
本來要今天搭客運然後花5個小時才到台北的﹐
明天的話﹐
就可以搭高鐵然後花1個半小時就好了。
真會算。但遲到就慘了。
我好想住在台北哦﹐
還是比較喜歡在台北的生活。
高雄感覺好小好簡單﹐
而且大家都在說台語!
我都好辛苦哦...
駕訓班的教練也是﹐
有事沒事就跟我說台語。

我聽不懂啦!

看來我必須開始學台語了...

85大樓下午茶茶

今天從奶奶家換了一台新的腳踏車去駕訓班。

但也沒有很新啦﹐是菜爺爺的。

菜爺爺說:

如果聽到很奇怪的聲音就是輪胎上的鐵脫落了。

...........

昨天的高雄風很大﹐

弟弟說好像有大象走在他前面。

應該說是有大象在後面推他吧...。

今天開始天氣就蠻明顯的變冷了﹐

真的好冷。

下午姑姑請老媽老弟和我去喝下午茶﹐

在我們家隔壁的85大樓﹐

但是我們是在第39樓吃下午茶的。

我們坐在窗子旁邊﹐

風景實在太美麗了!

整個高雄港口和一望無際的天空~

天啊.......

我們大家都一直猛拍照然後忘記吃東西了。

不過弟和我就一直在自拍嘿嘿...

弟的臉太經典了所以一定要分享一下

然後再來是我們看到用糖果做的城堡﹐

Sandy: 這是真的糖果做的嗎?

我: 哇~糖果城堡!!!!!

弟: 我想吃...

哦天啊我還在為很多事情煩惱耶﹐

干嘛浪費一個下午都在吃啊~

好煩哦~~

我知道以後想做什麼了﹐

我要當宅女!!!

複雜24倍

現在的自己﹐又一個人在新巴克。
店員都已經熟悉我要點什麼了。
抹茶荳漿拿鐵加一份expresso再少冰﹐和一杯冰水。
店員今天跟我說 "我自己喝了覺得有點怪怪的的耶..."
我都跟他回同一句﹐不會啦你做的很好喝。
味道是真的有一點點複雜﹐
但卻是很單純的香。

星期二老媽和老弟來高雄了。
弟很好笑﹐像冰箱上的吸鐵一樣﹐
一直粘著我。
不管我走到哪裡﹐
他會拉著我的衣角﹐拉著我的手臂﹐拉著我的包包﹐
然後一直一直跟我說他所看的每一集的海綿寶寶。
很好笑的是他還用他的手機寫日記然後給我看﹐
可是把我的名字拼錯了。
這幾天被老媽念得很慘﹐
因為我把新家整理好了﹐
但我的房間卻是個超級無敵霹靂的亂亂豬窩!
雖然很亂﹐
弟來的第一天還很高興的吵著要跟我睡﹐
還趁我洗澡的時候幫我把桌上的化妝品排整齊﹐
也太可愛了吧。
這幾天我還發現﹐
在台灣的老爸和老媽感覺起來比較像夫妻。
為什麼會這樣啊... 真的很奇怪。
但是更奇怪的是自己﹐
因為我對這種想法居然會覺得...很惡心﹐
真的很不習慣他們的相處模式像一對夫妻。
我可能比較適合單親的家庭模式吧﹐
所以才會很反感。
但不能怪我﹐因為十三年來的生活方式就是這樣。
我真的好矛盾﹐
一直以來都很希望他們可以在一起﹐
好好相處好好生活。
可是真的要發生的時候﹐自己卻感到反感。
可能是我已經習慣處於"期望著他們在一起"的狀態了吧。

說到複雜﹐
這個禮拜是以一個很複雜的心情開始的。
不知道要怎麼說怎麼形容﹐
但就是很多事情都是自己的預料之外。
很多想問的想說的都沒有說清楚﹐
很多問題沒有得到答案﹐
很多心情沒有整理妥當﹐
很多很多很多的複雜...。
但是很驚訝的發現﹐
這一段日子以來自己一點都沒有長大﹐
我原來還在原地。
一直以為我已經往前走了﹐
原來一直還停在同一個點上。

故事結束﹐愛麗絲並沒有走出她的仙境。

經歷了那麼多那麼多﹐想通了很多﹐
也被迫做了很多的決定接受很多不合理的要求﹐
在過程中自己也很努力的把心情整理好了。
但是就好像一部很好看的電影一樣﹐
不管它的結局是幸福快樂還是是一個大悲劇﹐
你還是會每隔一段時間後再把它拿出來看一遍。
而每看一次﹐
心情和第一次看的時候是不會有不同的。
每當你看完它的時候你還是會因為它而笑或是哭﹐
你一樣再次會感到它的快樂﹐或是它的悲傷。

而我就是覺得就算是個悲劇﹐
不管看幾遍還是會覺得它是一部好電影。

現在的我有個很重要的工作﹐
就是努力的想清楚自己的未來要怎麼走。
我也必須清楚了解自己的缺點和優點﹐
還有什麼是我迫切想要的﹐迫切想完成的。
我的缺點就是太容易安于現狀﹐太容易滿足。
而且就像船長說的﹐
一個容易滿足的人只會停頓﹐不會往前走。
我不應該期待著別人會怎麼樣或想要怎麼樣﹐
而是自己必須要有行動。
我必須趁別人為我把句子完成前就把整個文章寫完。

我知道現在自己的心情還是很複雜﹐
心裡有很多沒有被打開的鎖。
有點像在清理浴缸漏水孔卡住的頭髮一樣﹐
怎麼都清理不完﹐
頭髮多到好像另一端會拔出一個小女生.....
(形容到有點想吐了啦﹐好惡心)
反正﹐
心情就是理不清。

我好像還在等什麼...才能知道自己該怎麼做。



就好像是電影結束了﹐
我卻還留在座位上﹐
死命的盯著一直往上跑的幕後工作人員名單。
雖然明明知道這已經是一個悲劇﹐
可是還是會很期待credits結束後﹐
會有一個意想不到的另一個結局吧。

時間時間啊~

我剛剛發現部落格上的時間還是南非的﹐
都錯了啦﹐現在才剛調回來。

奇怪的生命

昨天在新巴克待到好晚哦!
雖然是自己一個人﹐可是很開心。
我現在最需要的可能就是自己一個人的時間吧...
自己上上網﹐寫寫東西﹐想想自己未來的目標。
昨晚離開新巴克的時候大概已經11:15PM了﹐天真的好黑。
路上都沒有人了﹐有點恐怖。
樓下就有我的100號的公車站﹐可是末班車是10:20PM。
天啊﹐我一直以為是11點半....
然後等了一下下﹐最後還是決定走路回家。
雖然自己一個人生活很自由很放鬆﹐
可是像這樣的時候﹐就真的很希望有個人陪在身邊...
跟老媽講電話講了將近要一個小時﹐
報告了在高雄這段時間生活的大大小小事情。
還有我們新家附近有什麼啊﹐還有新家的名字很好玩叫"諾貝爾"。

現在是6:10PM﹐
又是一個人在新巴克。
不過真的很喜歡這樣的感覺﹐
時間是屬於自己的。
不會有人吵著 叫你回家吃飯﹐
不會有人念你晚歸。
但是真的要好好想想自己要怎麼走....

曾經有個人跟我說"人因夢想而偉大"
這句話在各方面都給了我很大的鼓勵。
有時真的很想放棄一直以來所編織的夢想﹐
放棄很多以前一一打造的理想﹐
可是沒有這些﹐我們活著還有意義嗎?
雖然經歷了很多很多﹐絕望的接受了很多結果﹐也失去了很多...
但我還是繼續抱著希望...
期待著生命的下一個奇跡。

高雄甩尾

在等公車的時候看到的﹐

一部黑色賓士在十字路口右轉彎﹐甩尾。

可是司機好醜哦....甩的也很醜...

旁邊也在等公車的阿嬤說"厚~金藥修!"

這是我搭公車的路線。100號公車!!!!!

嘿嘿﹐我家是"八五大樓"那站﹐

然後下一站就是百貨公司了! 很棒吧~

我覺得很搞笑的是我家後的第三站﹐名字超長的...

恩就這樣啦~

我想打工!

在高雄的生活都還適應的很不錯。

天氣慢慢的變得更涼了﹐開始有冬天的味道了哦。

可是我面臨了一個大問題: 錢快花完了!

完蛋﹐我實在太愛買東西了啦!

所以現在我在考慮找一份臨時工﹐希望可以克服金錢上的問題。

是的﹐我不想跟老爸要錢。

像是昨晚啊﹐跟Sandy和奶奶一起去逛新掘江﹐

真是的奶奶都要搶著幫我們付!

感覺好不舒服...

什麼時候才是換我幫她買點什麼東西呢?

今天的駕訓班居然開了兩個小時半!

好誇張啊...

因為教練好像忘記我自己一個人在那邊練習路邊停車了。

昨天我還去買了好多佈置家裡的東西~

買了一些盆栽和沙發枕頭﹐還有一些小東西。

還花了1千元幫老妹買了一個超好看的紫色外套!

天啊我自己也好想要哦哈哈。

就是這樣錢才不見的那麼快吧...

好厲害的本本哦

本本出了他的第一本大畫集哦!

天啊天啊本本真的是太厲害了!!

從以前我就一直在注意他的動向﹐

很想說哪一天可以飛到中國然後拿他的簽名﹐

或是告訴他他的畫有多麼的打動我的心﹐然後給我很大的鼓勵。

他的故事和畫中的人物們﹐都如此的生動有生命﹐

會讓人被每一個細節感動。

也帶給我很大的影響。

本本一直來回中國和法國﹐

但是才前不久他去了馬來西亞﹐就在新加坡的上面哦~

可是我卻在南非!!!

OH MY GOD....難過了好久哦...

好期待本本這次的畫冊﹐真的好期待哦~

這是本本的第一個個人畫集﹐所以就以自己的名字作為畫集名稱: "本杰明"

大家要多支持哦! 不過有找到的話麻煩通知我一聲﹐因為他的書很難找。

啊對了﹐我要好好感謝英豪哦~因為他幫我買到了本本的"總有一天"~

實在讓我太感動了啦!!

高雄!

現在是我開始一個人生活的時刻了!

只有4天的自由...

不過!還是很興奮哦!
明天開始要自己坐地鐵然後騎腳踏車去學開車﹐
然後自己洗衣服﹐煮飯...自己吃飯...自己看電視...
恩....還是很希望我老妹快點來....

今天去駕訓班老爸讓我自己一個人試著騎腳踏車回去到節運站。
然後就咕嘰咕嘰的在慢車道慢慢的騎...
郭爺爺的黑色腳踏車﹐該生鏽的地方都生鏽了。
輪胎感覺好像是正方形的....剎車有點不靈...
腳踏車的前方有個歪歪的籃子。
經過一個路口時有經過兩個警察﹐
他們兩人都雙手交叉在胸前用很嚴肅的表情看著我緩慢的過去...
怎樣沒看過快爛掉的腳踏車嗎?!
然後就很緊張的想...剛剛是不是紅燈時沒停下來...!
可是.....腳踏車看到紅綠燈時要停嗎....?
是的。要停哦。
厚大概在大太陽底下騎了15分鐘吧﹐
然後看到老爸"你該減肥"的表情在節運站旁邊的腳踏車排﹐微笑的看著我。
怎樣沒看過小胖騎著快爛掉的腳踏車嗎?!
不過天啊﹐真的很累耶。
真希望高雄的天氣趕快變很冷很冷!

這幾天我很努力的認識新家的環境哦。
我家樓下有便利商店和小吃店﹐
走大概7分鐘就到大遠百﹐然後就可以坐節運了。
附近還有24小時的百貨店﹐
還有很多夜店....

唯一不方便的是必須到新巴克才能上網﹐家裡沒有網絡。
不過這也算是一種小小的幸福吧~
終於又讓我回到STARBUCKS的懷抱了~~開心開心!

老爸剛剛已經回台北了﹐
現在我一個人在新巴克享受自己的空間和咖啡和蛋糕~
恩﹐好幸福。

不過網絡是付了500元才有的哦!

到台北了

13號的星期四﹐我到台北了。
老爸沒有空來機場接我﹐所以只好一個人坐著大有巴士到忠孝復興的阿姨家。
阿金阿姨一看到我的第一句話就是 "哇我們家的仲璿可以嫁人了!"
天啊...不要一見面就是一句很嚇人的話好不好...
在等老爸來接我的時候﹐我把東西放在阿姨家就去了東區逛。
看到好多好想買的東西﹐結果居然發現沒帶錢出門...真的很傻眼...
14號的星期五﹐我去了公管。
買了很多很可愛的首飾和衣服﹐逛的很開心~
在買衣服的時候還跟小姐聊了起來﹐很好心的小姐還跟我報告了明天的天氣﹐會熱哦~
到了晚上﹐跟老爸一起去了通化街吃鐵板燒。
感覺好像回到小時候﹐想到以前全家一起去吃的畫面。
恩﹐鐵板燒真的很不錯。

結果今天﹐天氣真的熱起來了。
嘿嘿﹐還好沒有穿毛衣大外套之類的 (哈哈太誇張了)。
今天去了西門叮﹐碰到了一個從南美洲來在賣手皮繩的外國人。
跟他哈啦了好久英文﹐然後還買了5條。
之後在一家衣服店又跟店裡的小姐很開心的大談年輕人和男友問題(她的)。
不過我們很開心的還聊了很多其他的事﹐還做了一些很搞笑的事笑到抱在一起。
很難想象吧在一個服裝店﹐不過真的就碰到了一個很好玩的大姐姐。
真的很開心。

今天的收穫﹐再加上來台灣的前一天跟一些死黨碰面聊了很多﹐
讓我更清楚自己要什麼了...

只是...心裡還有莫名的空虛...

明天要下高雄了﹐之後就不會再上來台北。
到高雄陌生的環境﹐感到有點小小的鬱悶......
不過還好有件事讓我很期待!
就是死黨會來看我哦~
她們說要帶著一個笑話來找我。
意思就是為了要跟我說一個笑話飛來台灣...!
不知道是什麼笑話﹐但跟我有關。
好期待哦.....

回來了

回到新加坡第一件做的就是買了周杰倫的專輯。
第二天﹐剪頭髮...覺得剪得有點好笑...不過很高興。
因為感冒加上時差﹐在家裡睡了好多天﹐都沒有跟任何人碰面。
時間快到了﹐馬上又要準備回台灣了。
準備要開始學開車囉~
有點興奮也有點小緊張...
這次回台灣﹐必須把握一個半月的時間﹐找出自己的目標。

我有說服力嗎?

很想看看爸爸在高雄的新家長什麼樣子~
還有我要吃很多很多的小吃!!
天啊! 孔雀香酥脆~
然後買很多的衣服和鞋子!!!
哇~~

恩還有找自己的目標......

年底哥哥就要結婚了﹐我需要送給他什麼嗎?
我應該穿什麼呢?
還有...需要準備什麼嗎...
天啊﹐好多問號。

很期待可以碰到妹妹﹐然後一起在台灣看Twilight的電影。
嘿嘿﹐太棒了。


不過還有很多要擔心的事...........................
好擔心......

Degree Decimal Degree

This is the format how we used on the gps system in the company. Yes a random thought i'm having now while thinking of a title for this entry.

Anyway, i'm back. In Singapore.

The weather was unexpectingly hot and humid. Had a hard time to get used to. My plans for the future has some changes now. Now I have two choices, No.1: Stay in Singapore, find a job. No.2: Stay in Taiwan, find a job. And No.3: Go back to South Africa. Ok I got three choices. Yes no more America stuffs now. I decided it's just a waste of money and time. I probably will take No.3, I don't find it's a nice idea to start new in somewhere else. I don't know... maybe leaving SA is a better idea. I really don't know. What i'm sure is that i got a good raise last month. I finally got the chance to say: All the hard work pays off.

My schedule is: 19Nov, Taiwan, taking my driving lessons and license. Wish me luck.

Uncle James promised to teach me how to drive before i left South Africa. But all i did was one afternoon of test drive with my dad on X5. It's a monster tank car! Goodness. So, I still needs alot of luck.

Anyways, I still have one and a half months to think about my future. All suggestions are very welcome.

Cheers!

Lovely weather to think.

Yesturday was a holiday. Not really sure what the holiday is about, but was glad to have a good day to rest in the middle of the week. I woke up at 12:30pm, amazingly to find out that I was able to sleep that late. It's really been a while since I last woke up after 9am. Since I got nothing to do for the day except watching tv, I decided to go out with uncle Kevin. We went makro, a big warehouse-mall-supermarket, and we bought tonnes of stationaries, for the company. Haha ya seems like the centre of my life is the company. Afterwards we decided to head to Brightwater Commons. It was called "Waterfront" when I lived here ten plus years ago. They had the big lake-like pond dried up and had many shops built on top. It was nice to walk there. The weather was really cool and warm. Over the dinner we had conversation about, nothing more, the company. I guess my leaving is really making things harder. Especially finding a replacement. Uncle Kevin couldn't stop complain about the difficulties he will be facing if I'm gone. In my point of view, I guess it's gonna be hard for him to get someone with such low salary as mine and with such great amount of work to do. But somehow, I start to wonder whether I have made the right decision. No matter what the doubts are, I think the uncertainties in life have made its colour shine.




May the sky be our limit.

TWILIGHT

星期天的時候﹐去逛了跳蚤市場。
經過書店的時候﹐很驚訝的發現到門口貼的大海報﹐居然是尋找很久的Twilight。

(封面)

老妹和我找了好久﹐現在終於又重新出版了。
我在想是因為電影要出來了﹐所以出版社要大撈一筆吧...

(電影海報)

男主角在海報中感覺好像"剪刀手愛德華"

很白﹐很酷﹐很恐怖。

我已經買了小說﹐目前看到94頁﹐要邁入第六章了。

真的很期待很期待電影﹐因為小說真的很好看。

不過就故事來講可能比較適合學生吧...

真的好想

我想要這個.............


上個禮拜六小表弟帶了幾個朋友到家裡過夜﹐大家一起看了好多恐怖片。
本來他們4個小朋友要睡客廳的﹐結果跑來我房間一起睡。
好煩哦...早上還吵死人了...
都一群14歲的小男生了﹐膽子那麼小。

不過恐怖片倒是很不錯看。
嗯。

期待

7:00AM起床
7:07AM換好衣服
7:14AM洗好臉擦好保養品
7:21AM化妝完畢
7:28AM把頭髮綁好然後到廚房把早餐吃完
7:56AM到公司
最近因為天氣乾燥﹐手背變很粗很乾很紅很痛﹐裂開流血﹐好醜。
新的辦公室景色很不錯﹐有時候早上會有一隻鴨子飛到我的窗外。
對面有一個咖啡館﹐可是咖啡很難喝﹐害我好失望...
我已經不再帶便當到公司了﹐可是中午都在煩惱要吃什麼。
最近看了日劇"Orange Days"﹐讓我很感動﹐也學會了一些手語。
頭髮變長了﹐可是沒有層次﹐厚厚長長的害我很不好整理。
我不相信南非的理髮店﹐只好等回台灣的時候再剪頭髮吧...
(啊!鴨子又來了)
嗯﹐就叫它"便便"好了﹐因為它每次來都在吃自己的大便...奇怪的鴨子。
這個禮拜讓我很打擊的話是"女人最可怕了"
有那麼嚴重嗎?
雖然不是針對我﹐但還是有小小的受傷。
讓我很驚訝的事是﹐我的小表弟手臂上的肌肉實在練的太好了。
這兩個禮拜我在玩Wii的Umbrella Chronicles。

最近忽胖忽瘦....真煩.....

還有...真的很對不起大家...
我並沒有把大家的msn鎖起來哦﹐只是已經很久很久沒有上了。
(感謝英豪的提醒)
還有大家在Friendster的留言...好感動...
嗯嗯很快我們就可以再見面了。
親愛的Eunice﹐再等我一下下哦...
我們很快就可以感受到彼此友情的溫暖了!
哈哈哈哈哈!!!

May the sky be the limit.

New World Order

I could still remember so clear that in Feb2007, just a week before Fusion Show, Dad asked me to get a degree no matter what. He said, "The basic education level that a person should have, is getting a degree.". Back then, I wana work after our Fusion Show. But family big shit starts to happen and my decision for myself made me a villain. Alright then, I should listen to them, and further my studies. When I just started to enjoy my life in NTU with Eunice, I was forced to accept the fact that family is facing financial problems (or not actually), and had to come South Africa to work. I fought against this and... nothing good happened. Once again, unwillingly, I had to accept and deal with what ever they have decided for me.

During my stay in SA so far, I think I do the most is thought about my life alot. And I have realised one thing is that a big failure of my life is that I am not financially independent. Which means, I have no saving thats gonna last long enough for me to survive somewhere or make a decision for myself. Someone once told me "Always make sure you have many doors open for you when one shuts."

So, though I don't like what I have or what I am doing, I work hard and make sure every day counts. Life is yours, it is up to you to accept or fought for it.

But life is full of changes.



Now, my dad wants me to study, again.



I really hoped... that things aren't the way it should be right now... During this period of stay, I have lost too many, and too many regrets. It hurts so much to think about.

I am coming home baby

It's not complicated.
Simply just me.

To be or not to be

Should I accept the truth?
Or should I fake my own reality.

A question to give a deep thought.

Disgusted

They went through my files.

They went through my stuffs.

They mess up my life.

They put me to death.

Disgusted.

Tired.

Help...

Anyone...

Please.

The Weak Minded

That's best describe my current state.

My life becomes so plain and dull. Nothing but of work. No hopes or dreams or thoughts. Just living, awake but unconcious.

Somehow I don't feel sad anymore. Ya I think I'm not sad. Not at all anymore. Not even angry or mad. I look at myself in the mirror everyday in the morning, seeing the same old me, but something is gone.






I wana fly.
But I have lost my wings.

Blue Monday

So sad to think. Each breath i take it just hurt so much.




I guess my movie has a sad ending and it's about to end.

Goodbye

10:06AM

Current position in the office, waiting for dad to pick me up and sending Jess away.
Jess' flight is at 1PM.
Gosh man... it's now end of July in a blink. I regreted so much that couldn't make more free time to spend with her. Gonna miss the days we get icecream after work, watching movies, searching for books in the stores, play OBSCURE2, laugh at Five FM Garyth's Show in the morning, play piano, lying on the heated floor and just talk, plan our comic, get our food in the super market, and having Jess just simply be there for me when things get bad...

Time to go now...

Why So Serious

Last night had a huge fight with dad. I can't accept the way he arrange things. Includes my future. It is so unfair. You can't just take away something from another's life base on the reasons that are just so cruel and untrue. I never gonna accept the fact that he truely is my dad. And I don't give a damn about whether he knows me well or believe in me. Whatever I do, there's only doubt in his eyes. And whatever he say, i'm gonna take in nothing.

I sat on the floor and just cried the whole night. Jess couldn't help it and cried along. We cried and talked and silent and talked. By the time i washed my face i can't even open my eyes. I feel so shit about everything. "You should leave this shithole as soon as possible," Jess said. I don't know what to say. Too much disappointment to handle and deal with.

What is your plan? He asked me last night. Getting a degree, then work and get married? He answered for me. Well it's quite a decent answer, but fuck that. So what if that is my plan, are you gonna decide for me when to get the degree, where to work and who to marry???

I hate to live in the hopes and expectations of others. Perhaps i think too much, and compensate too much. Someone once said to me, are you gonna live for yourself or others?

Sometimes I just want to leave this world behind.

Lekker

Being really busy lately. Piles and piles of work, problems of staff members to be dealt everyday, new policies to follow, life to handle, etc etc etc. Though Jess is here now, but nothing has changed. She follow me to work everyday, and spend the rest of the day like i do everyday. Boring, dull, and unexcited.

But i guess the best part is that we spent 10hours in one Saturday and 3 hours on Sunday to complete OBSCURE 2: The Aftermath. Yes we've completed it! But to great disappointment, there aren't any unlockables.

I went out with Jess last night for a movie. We watched Hancock, which alot people said that it is bad. But still we have to watch it, 'coz no Will Smith movie is gonna be missed! And we find it pretty good. Though i hate how the director shoot the film (yes that stupid bouncing and unstable camera!), I personally find that the story is very original. Anything to do with love and fate and sacrifies, is good.

For the past two weeks, life isn't going well. I've been living in fear and uncertainties. My bad habbit of assuming things are killing me. I guess Fauz is right, don't assume. But sadness and emptiness have taken a place deep down. What should i do...? There's no one i can speak to, and there's no one that understands me. What's surrounding me are those that can't be trusted. I've never felt so helpless in my life before.

Something happened yesturday that has made my day... really weird. I got a call from a guy who used to work for my dad as a salesman. A really hard working guy. It was so strange to call all a sudden 'coz he already quited for about two months. He called and chatted and told me why he quit the job and is now a sales manager in another dealership. To my surprise, he asked me out. I got really shocked. And i refused immediately. And he said "Is it because i'm white?". Goodness, another race question. Honestly speaking its not about the race. It's about my heart and soul that are already taken. Lastly he said he will call me again in a week's time so meanwhile i should think about it again. I dislike handling this kinda stuff. No means no. What more is there for me to think about?



And my sister said to me, she wants an eurasian nephew.
Jess, please let me strangle you.


Alright cheers.

Quiet

This is one of the songs in Rachael Yamagata's "Happenstance". Enjoy.



Baby says I can't come with him
And I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked
You know and I know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

Take care
I've been hurt before
Too much time spend on closing doors
You may hate me, but I'll remember to love you
Goodbye
Don't cry
You know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again
Never to see your face again

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything to change when I leave

cheers :)

Sometimes

Sometimes i just wish that i am invisible. Away. Gone.

I got my day started off badly, again. This morning i was been wronged and blamed by two people, two different incidents. One from the company and one i loved dearly. You know it's nothing a big deal, really nothing, but I blame no one for that but myself. Haha you know, sometimes things go wrong so easily when you didn't try to explain them when you have the chance to... Is it wrong to think for others? Or I simply did things in a wrong way? Now I just couldn't help myself but to hate where I'm working, what I'm doing and where I am right now. Both bad incidents made me so sad. On the scale of 1 to 10, with "suicidal" on 1 and "heavenly happiness" on 10, i guess i'm on 2. I really wish that there's someone that i can talk to right now. Instead, there are people who think they know me so well. Yucks man, fuck off. I guess i'm on a nerve break down... Please man, i really hate tearing in the office. Irritating. Disgusting. I wana go home. Perhaps sleeping is a good thing for me right now. Getting so involved in your own sadness is sick. Really sick. I'm so sick of myself now.

This is a rubbish post.

Cheers and God bless.

Sneak preview

There was a commotion yesturday about the company's new vehicle:


On sale 2009.

I took a ride from home to work this morning with this car. Frankly speaking, it is not as good as it seems. Haha.

Faded

I miss Mr Kelvin's drawing class.
I miss Ms Lee's concept development class.
I miss drawing, doodling, photoshop-ing, 24-hr FYPJ...
I miss conceptualising.
I miss those days.

I wana draw. I desperately wana draw.

Oh man... how i wish i'm not where i am right now.


It is 4:55PM. Time to end today's work and go home.
I wana do freelance, but sadly South Africa is abit lack of that kinda industry need.

I'll try to google it, wish me luck.

cheers!!


PS. Mr Kelvin still owes me my final assignment, Re Del Cielo. Please if anyone happens to go back to sch, help me find it, it is my best so far and unfortunately i don't have a soft copy. Maybe it is on the school wall somewhere (LOL).

Campfire Song

Something fun and retard for the young minds out there.
Enjoy.



Cheers~

Sayings

We no longer say "Yo' man!", "Hey man!", "What's up!" or anything else. A new trend has been developed in the company.

We now greet each other with "Nei-garrr!" (yes say it with a long "Rrrrr" sound)

What kind of fucking-retarded thing is this you must be wondering. Well, it is originated from we, the Chinese people. We always say "那個" ("na-ge") repeatedly in a sentence to show our hesitation or a pause for thoughts when we speak. It's just like saying "Ermm... about that....". But we often say it in a way like "Nei-ge, nei-ge...", which happens to sound like "nigger nigger...." to the non-chinese. An extremely disparaging and offensive slang to call a black person. And South Africa happens to be one place that is extremely sensitive of racism, due to its past unhappy history (now we don't get into the sad stories).

Fortunately, my non-chinese colleagues had enquired the defination of the word "那個" from the Chinese, and so we (chinese) didn't offend anyone here by saying that (thank God...). But somehow this became a joke in the company instead.

As all the chinese people in the company start the sentence with "那個", now all the blacks and whites and other colours, has started to greet each other with "Nei-garrr!!" Nei-gar! Nei-gar!". Obviously they got the idea wrong.

Instead of saying "Hey yo man!", imagine people happily say "Nei-gar!!" with a big smile when approach you in the morning, and gives you a hi-five...



Something is definitely wrong with this trend.


cheers people!

Friday afternoon

Been a long while since the last post.

My day today didn't start off well. Basically it has been bad since last night. Or even the day before. Or even the day before of the day before. or even.... it could just go on countlessly. But away, thank God it is now the weekend.

Today is a typical Friday. Everyone gets lazy, so nothing can be done or accomplished today. I just had two packets of crakers and two cups of coffee.
Yucks man this working life style is making me fat and unhealthy. Especially now the cold weather... sheesh... more coffee is needed....

Upon knowing that Jess is coming over soon after she arrived in Singapore on the 12th, I bought two ps2 games. Namely Kingdom Hearts 2 and Obscure 2: The Aftermath. They cost me R450 in total. Yes, they are originals. Now, finally something wonderful to do in this boring and dull life of mine.





But sadly Jess will only be coming on the 8th of July.








Well, though my day begins badly, but the nice colleagues around me has made my day.





It is now 4:25pm, half an hour more to end today's work. But oh well no one is working already since 2pm anyway....





I'll be ending my post here, with a picture of my desk. Enjoy.

PS. I need hugs........

Baby please hurry back...

...to me

Resident Evil: Degeneration

Ok put aside the sad boring life. Something light and fun.

Resident Evil: Degeneration is the upcoming new movie on Resident Evil, by Sony Pictures and Capcom. It is entirely 3D animations. What's more? Leon is featured in it.


What more can a RE fan ask for?! We finally can see Leon S. Kennedy. I guess Capcom doesn't want his Leon get spoiled by lousy acting by random actor in the Hollywood. Well nice move Capcom! It's definitely a movie worth waiting for. So Square Enix have Cloud, now Capcom gonna blow the world away with Leon.

Here's the trailer. Please scream on the 37th second.



So let's see, another 10 years more to wait?


cheers people

Set Ups

I realised that i got set up by not just one person, but a gang.
My whole gang of family members have set me up.
Sad, but true.
Inorder to protect, i have to lie.
Lying isn't my way. But i have to.
Sorry CFNs, maybe i'll see you guys in the future of unknown.




May the sky be our limits
Love, Jen

"This is your life...

...and it's ending one minute at a time."

This is a quote from the movie Fight Club, and i just love this phrase so much. A very cruel way but well said about one's life. Imagine your life is calculated in minutes, you are losing your life every now and then. Every minute gone, means a closer step towards the end. How short can you imagine one's life is. How do you do to make every moment worthwhile? It's a question for a lifetime.


Yesturday had a conversation with Jessica, who is currently studying in California, Walnut. She told me she spent a total amount of US$250 on figurings. YES F-I-G-U-R-I-N-G-S!!! I was like, are you crazy? She was totally crazy over the figuring warehouse sale, so bought A LOT! Resident Evil, Corpse Bride... ya those kinda popular creepy bloody ones. My lovely Jessica's style. What amazes me the most, is what she found there. "Where the Wild Things Are" figurings.

Jess said that she was starring at them for a long time wondering whether she should spent more to get those, because she already spent alot and the boxes are tattered and torn. If i was there, i won't even spend another minute to think that question! Luckly a guy approach her (after seeing her starring at them for so long), he told her its a must-collect collectables. One of the reason being that they are no longer in production. And then Jess spent another US20. Pretty worth.


"Where the wild things are" is a famous children's book, was Jess and my favourite when we were small, really small. We still have that book in the old home back in taiwan. Who cares about whether to collect them or not, its a piece of memory that came back to us, that's why Jess is buying them. I was so thrilled that she found those. LOL! People, the movie is coming soon in 2009.


Just something for fun, i edited a photo that was taken in my house on my 22nd birthday. I just find the faces in the picture... very weird and irritating. Hahaha!

(taken by EUNICE!!!!!!!!)

Here's another photo, took from the CFN blog. Taken in the singapore Changi Airport on the day that i left. Thanx for the surprise people.



Haha what a long post...

Will post Kaichan in the next entry ^-^!!


cheers!

12:35PM

Cold day, but the sun shines...



Being really busy lately. Everything is the same, noting much to say about.







It's time to eat lunch.

Growing Up

Kaichan drinking milk, under my office desk.

kaichan...

meet my new pet... Kai-chan!


age: 1 month plus old
height: 30cm+
weight: ...
gender: unknown

KevJumba

I don't like to see video blogs. I think people in video blogs got nothing to do, and wasting time. But this guy, realy amazes me.

Jess showed me KevJumba's video blogs on youtube last year, and ever since i became a huge fan of him. This guy really is amazing, i laugh out loud watching his videos. It's not just funny stuffs but the facts and things he has talked about are pretty true. Seriously, this guy put in alot effords in his videos. Just check his videos out in your free time. Here are some of my favourites.

enjoy!








I'm onto his latest videos now. Cheers people and take care. Peace!




love
jen

This is CRAP!!!!!

I found something interesting in Jess's blog so decided to try it too.
Just type in your name to see a photograph of you in the future, so here is what i've got.

(C)未来照片館 (C)無料ゲーム屋ふりーむ Supported by 無料オンラインゲームまとめ

Holy crap.

But then somehow my 璿 (xuan) never appear... so i decided to try my english name, but seems like it doesnt accept chung, so only "Jennifer" got through. And this is what came out:

(C)The Future Photo Museum (C)Free Game FREEM Supported by Free Online Game Matome

what kind of crap is this........




Ok i know how now, i can type my full english name in one word, and they accept that. So i tryied "JenniferChung", this is what i've got:

(C)The Future Photo Museum (C)Free Game FREEM Supported by Free Online Game Matome

=____=||||.........

OBSCURE: The Aftermath

Recently my sister Jessica told me a big ass news!

OBSCURE: The Aftermath will be out on 25th March 2008!!!!!!!!!

I think the best thing about it is that it will be out in PS2! Woohoo! Thank god that Barry has PS2... gotta get the original game this time! When Jess and i played OBSCURE I, it just keep hanging everytime when there's a cut scene. From gamespot.com, they say that OBSCURE I has alot of problems in the programing, so the game didnt come out fine. Yucks man, and back then we bought the pirated version. Can you imagine the uncomfortability it gave us?!

Here's the trailer of obscure II: the aftermath. Ok the guy in the cute yarn hat is Stan!!!! Goshh man see how cute he is! People, you guys gotta play OBSCURE!! It's the best survivor horror game ever! And it has 2 players! yeahh~~

enjoy ^-^




At the same time, i'm saving money to get PS3. Ok maybe starting from next month. Hahaha... coz too bad i spent all my salary =P


Jess! Towards the happiness of gaming we go!!! LOL!!


South Africa is getting really cold now adays. Winter is coming! Oh man i gotta get some warm to wear, warm to drink and warm to eat.


Alright off i go now




Cheers people!

OTAKU!!!!

is a japanese word for "guys who stays home and watch anime".

Last week saturday when went shopping with Sandy and Simon, I came across a magazine.

"OTAKU"

OMG....this is crazy shit! South Africa's very own OTAKU MAGAZINE!!! Can you believe it?! I'm so thrilled...! Finally i feel so near to japan and anime stuffs!

HAppy happy happy~~

Guess what guys, i'm joining the local fan art competition. LOL! The date due is 10th May, wish me luck guys. Gotta do something about it, not gonna let this op go away~ ^____^

naush's spirit!!!!!

Carpe Diem

Sieze the day...

Yes here's this phrase again.

I just couldn't stop thinking about it you know. A split second and you are turning 30, 40, 60 and then the next thing you know, you are already in the coffin (ok maybe you won't know). But then guys, time really is going by in a super sonic speed. Somehow reality will strike you down hard in any minute. It already did on me the moment i got here (SA).

What is your plan for the future? Barry asked me.

Well, i have no idea... that's what i told him.

But then deep down i was screaming like "FUCK MAN! FUCK FUCK FUCK."
What the fuck am i gonna do?? Ya continue work in this place for someone? Or perhaps get married and have a bunch of kids....? Well i'm not that young anymore you know... i'm turning 40 soooon!!!!!


Err ya right...

Ok, remember guys? we used to have dreams and ambitions that goes around ANIMATION!! Woohoo what an exciting thought right? But not anymore now. Ya thanx to Mr Reality.

For the past month i learnt alot of things from Simon.


Basically, what he've taught me is... ok i'll keep those to myself first and then share to you guys sometimes later. HAHA!

Time to end this vulgar entry....................





cheers people

Saturday

It's Sat 1.28pm now as i'm posting this entry.

Yes. It is Sat, and i'm in the office (the only place that i'm able to access internet). Well there's some problem and i'm here to help, but then didnt do much hahaha. Anyway, i'm waiting for Sandy and Simon to pick me up later in about 10min time, and then we'll go SHOPPPINGGGG!!!!!!! YEAH!!! Hahaha why so lucky? Becoz Simon is leaving on Sunday.... going back to taiwan and then head to America for his sister's wedding. LOL. So kinda have the excuse to go out and shop on his last day here. Well he's gona be back in April.

I wana go away from HERE awhile too man.... envy Simon.... Sigh... when will be my holiday? i wana go back singapore to see my lovely friends and family... =(

Aaaahhh i still have 90% of my stuffs left in singapore! Hope that mom wont throw them away....! Goshhh no man...

Ok its like one month and a half in SA... not a single movie watched!!! Shit man. Hahaha. This is totaly unacceptable!!! Will think of something the coming week... gotta see something man... pray for me guys...!





Ok i think its about time to end this short entry.

Cheers people and god bless!

Life over here

...really is killing me.

It's already being over one month in South Africa, staying with my uncle James and other relatives. Well it wasn't very nice when i first got here. Too many rules. But I'm feeling much better now, everything is on track and going well, physically and mentally.

I am now working for my uncle in his huge company as an accountant in one of the department, but at the same time understanding the work in the exporting and importing department. Pretty hacktic right. Anyways working is pretty fun and interesting, though the pay is pretty low.... YES GUYS THE PAY IS DAMN LOW!!! But then the cost of living here isn't muach lower than Singapore. Most of the stuffs here are quite expensive x____X"

Besides working, there's nothing else i can do.
Here's my daily activity:
7am - wake up
8am - start work
5pm - end work, and then walk home quickly before it turns dark.
6.30-7pm - Dinner time~~~
After dinner will be bathing and a little bit of TV.......
9pm - sleep.......!

But then i dont sleep that early these days, have being watching tv till quite late, and got scolded. Haha. As for the weekend, mayb a walk to the nearest mall and buy coffee. Hehe happy hour ^-^.

My dad is now currently in Taiwan, so it's now only me, uncle James and his wife and a kid, aunt Jenny with his 2 kids Barry and Sandy, and aunt Jenny's new husband's nephew Simon. Hahaha quite a number of people here.

Glad to say that i'm still doodling here and there, but nothing nice and presentable haha. At least i'm not giving this skill up man!

I miss my family Jessica, Jonathan and mom.

I miss CFNs.... I miss those days chilling with you guys... I miss you guys so so so MUCH!! I miss Eunice's randomness, June's coolness, Fauz's humour, Yuyan's smile, Paula's high pitch...

Haha i miss singapore.


Ok that's the end of the post, hope that i can keep it updated in the future.



cheers.