Sometimes

Sometimes i just wish that i am invisible. Away. Gone.

I got my day started off badly, again. This morning i was been wronged and blamed by two people, two different incidents. One from the company and one i loved dearly. You know it's nothing a big deal, really nothing, but I blame no one for that but myself. Haha you know, sometimes things go wrong so easily when you didn't try to explain them when you have the chance to... Is it wrong to think for others? Or I simply did things in a wrong way? Now I just couldn't help myself but to hate where I'm working, what I'm doing and where I am right now. Both bad incidents made me so sad. On the scale of 1 to 10, with "suicidal" on 1 and "heavenly happiness" on 10, i guess i'm on 2. I really wish that there's someone that i can talk to right now. Instead, there are people who think they know me so well. Yucks man, fuck off. I guess i'm on a nerve break down... Please man, i really hate tearing in the office. Irritating. Disgusting. I wana go home. Perhaps sleeping is a good thing for me right now. Getting so involved in your own sadness is sick. Really sick. I'm so sick of myself now.

This is a rubbish post.

Cheers and God bless.

Sneak preview

There was a commotion yesturday about the company's new vehicle:


On sale 2009.

I took a ride from home to work this morning with this car. Frankly speaking, it is not as good as it seems. Haha.

Faded

I miss Mr Kelvin's drawing class.
I miss Ms Lee's concept development class.
I miss drawing, doodling, photoshop-ing, 24-hr FYPJ...
I miss conceptualising.
I miss those days.

I wana draw. I desperately wana draw.

Oh man... how i wish i'm not where i am right now.


It is 4:55PM. Time to end today's work and go home.
I wana do freelance, but sadly South Africa is abit lack of that kinda industry need.

I'll try to google it, wish me luck.

cheers!!


PS. Mr Kelvin still owes me my final assignment, Re Del Cielo. Please if anyone happens to go back to sch, help me find it, it is my best so far and unfortunately i don't have a soft copy. Maybe it is on the school wall somewhere (LOL).

Campfire Song

Something fun and retard for the young minds out there.
Enjoy.



Cheers~

Sayings

We no longer say "Yo' man!", "Hey man!", "What's up!" or anything else. A new trend has been developed in the company.

We now greet each other with "Nei-garrr!" (yes say it with a long "Rrrrr" sound)

What kind of fucking-retarded thing is this you must be wondering. Well, it is originated from we, the Chinese people. We always say "那個" ("na-ge") repeatedly in a sentence to show our hesitation or a pause for thoughts when we speak. It's just like saying "Ermm... about that....". But we often say it in a way like "Nei-ge, nei-ge...", which happens to sound like "nigger nigger...." to the non-chinese. An extremely disparaging and offensive slang to call a black person. And South Africa happens to be one place that is extremely sensitive of racism, due to its past unhappy history (now we don't get into the sad stories).

Fortunately, my non-chinese colleagues had enquired the defination of the word "那個" from the Chinese, and so we (chinese) didn't offend anyone here by saying that (thank God...). But somehow this became a joke in the company instead.

As all the chinese people in the company start the sentence with "那個", now all the blacks and whites and other colours, has started to greet each other with "Nei-garrr!!" Nei-gar! Nei-gar!". Obviously they got the idea wrong.

Instead of saying "Hey yo man!", imagine people happily say "Nei-gar!!" with a big smile when approach you in the morning, and gives you a hi-five...



Something is definitely wrong with this trend.


cheers people!

Friday afternoon

Been a long while since the last post.

My day today didn't start off well. Basically it has been bad since last night. Or even the day before. Or even the day before of the day before. or even.... it could just go on countlessly. But away, thank God it is now the weekend.

Today is a typical Friday. Everyone gets lazy, so nothing can be done or accomplished today. I just had two packets of crakers and two cups of coffee.
Yucks man this working life style is making me fat and unhealthy. Especially now the cold weather... sheesh... more coffee is needed....

Upon knowing that Jess is coming over soon after she arrived in Singapore on the 12th, I bought two ps2 games. Namely Kingdom Hearts 2 and Obscure 2: The Aftermath. They cost me R450 in total. Yes, they are originals. Now, finally something wonderful to do in this boring and dull life of mine.





But sadly Jess will only be coming on the 8th of July.








Well, though my day begins badly, but the nice colleagues around me has made my day.





It is now 4:25pm, half an hour more to end today's work. But oh well no one is working already since 2pm anyway....





I'll be ending my post here, with a picture of my desk. Enjoy.

PS. I need hugs........